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Mayhem, tehee! Well, I've been off for a few days, busy, ya know, daily stuff, haha. And finally finished school. You don't know how relieving is that, it's like, finally, it's summer! And I know summer means hot weather, and hot weather means sweating, and I hate sweat, but all the freedom you get -if you're still studying at school, like me- is just uncomparable: parents let you go to bed as late as you want, hanging out everyday, sleeping as much as you can, eating as much as you can, meeting new people.. Just FREEDOM. I still don't have plans for Wednesday and Sunday, perhaps the other days are taken.
So I saw this bumper sticker at Facebook saying hot guys are assholes, ugly guys are the nice ones, and if a guy is hot and noce, he must be gay. So why does this little quote fit reality so damn perfectly? I can't tell. I wish I could change that, but who am I? Just another someone, locked in the persistence of insaneness.
Now, changing of topic, I'm starting to like Twitter! First, because I can see updates from famous people I admire that they wrote themselves, no managers and stuff like Facebook and MySpace. And second, at first, it is sort of boring, but when you start to understand the catch, you get used to it. What I mean is, that, who wouldn't like to know that there are a bunch of people that "follows" what you do? Is like, someone likes what you do -of course, we're not talking about those random spam accounts- and he/she keeps in touch with your updated daily activities. Well, at least I like it.

I can't wait to fall in love, with you.
You can't wait to fall in love, with me.
Let's just call it summer love, for real.

Sorry, I went downstairs to cook something for my hungry self and totally got a cut_out of ideas. So this entry may end here.
Toodles!

Leave the World Behind.

Hey you, are you real men?
I'm stuck outside you.

So yeah, just wanted to come up with some boring stuff. Just to bring up a topic that is already clear about me: I adore to party. Well, that's how I meet new people, find new chances, have tons of fun, drink, and dance along a reeaaaally loud techno song. I love techno, that's another thing. Its just that it is like a hyperactiveness switch, haha.
Wanna know why I don't have suscribers -well, just one-? I guess its because people suscribe to more entertaining blogs than that just a blog of a bored and silly girl that just posts what she thinks. Bah, I wish more people read my blog.

Once more I say goodbye to you,
Things happen but we don't really know why.
If its supposed to be like this,
Why the most of us ignore the chance you missed?

Insomnia ~

Well, I can't sleep. It's midnight, I just finished watching 2 movies, slept for a little bit, had an outrageous dream and woke up harshly, with a headache. Yup, just perfect. What am I doing now? Guess. Watching the third movie of the night: Batman Begins. I don't know -or care- which one -the first, the second, the third- is specifically the one I'm watching but I don't mind.
Laying on my bed, hearing the snores on my background, and looking for a channel that would bring me up some entertaining stuff. I know it's weird to hear ME saying I'm watching tv -since I don't, fellow reader, if you didn't know, by the way-, but what else could I do? The nin sixty four is downstairs, haha.

Where it's at? Where it's at?
I know karma's coming to pay me back.
I broke his heart in 30 seconds flat,
in 30 seconds flat.
My momma told me "Girl, that aint right.
Oh, now that ain't right."
I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry.
I didn't mean to break your heart.
I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry.
I didn't mean to break it, baby.
Look, baby, I'm a heartbreaker.
I'm a heart breaker.

Ok, I'll stop it. Tehee! A quick topic change: kisses. Oh yeah, kisses. Where did this topic come from? Well, its easy to know. Tv.
Have you ever had one of those movie-like kisses? Yeah, like Twilight kisses -if you have read the book, of course-? The ones that would knock your conscience out of your lungs, and would leave your heart controlling your body? It's hard to find someone that would make someone else feel like that.
Unless you fall in love easily.

Okay, I'm off. Found something SUPA interesting on tv. Guess what is it. Doctor House! Haha, I just love that guy. Yeah, along with the series, the character. I don't know why I tend to adore guys with badass attitudes. Not good! But the guy is just hilarious..
Hey, later, it's starting! -cranks dat soulja boy along with the song of the beginning of the episode- ohh yeah!
Bahaha! Toodles!

-sigh-

Yeah, I just feel like the title of this entry. Life is so hard. And we are so little in front of the huge form of it. So weak, so stupid.
Especially myself. I'm... no good. I think I still haven't found the purpose of my living. I'm still fighting after my main dream, but.. in the personal side, I'm... all alone. And above all, I'm so vulnerable. And the fact that I don't know what the hell I should be expecting for myself hurts, you know?
Well.. changing of topic.. I'm bored, as usual. And just felt like I should post a new entry -yeah, I don't like leaving my blog like last year. Two posts a year. Amazing. (Wait, not, since I made my blog that year, hahh!) But means the same, doesn't it? Bah- for my blog's own good.
Ok, I got nothing to say, apart that I ate a little box of fried fries and two fried chicken wings, lol. I know a tummy is coming, tummy foody fatty maky!

You'll never see me again, now who's gonna cry for you?
You'll never see me again, no matter what you do.

The Kat is back!

Wow, I thought my last entry in this blog was around January or something.. But not starting December!
As well, I'm back with new.. thoughts, things, stuff.. But today, I just want to let it aaall out. What I feel today, I mean.

I'm so confused. I don't even understand myself or what I do. Not now, because most of the time I know what I'm doing and all but since last Friday, I've been feeling.. blank, confused, terrible.
Its like, I got nobody to tell what REALLY is inside, nor like I will post it exactly in here.. But I'm.. Pure garbage. I don't know if I'm the one wrong. I don't know if the one wrong is the world and all the people around me.
This just feels plain weird.. Gah! I can't even say like the whole topic I'm talking about but I am! I know you don't understand but that's sort of the problem: nobody understands me, nor can I understand myself.
But I have the feeling that.. one person does. And I know that person. Its just that he lives a thousand milles away from me.. And why do I think this? Because, as he has told me, he feels just like me.
And that's what I need. Someone just like me. Sometimes I just feel the world has made so much damage to my clear mind.. I'm infected. I'm infected by jealousy, high self-confidence (the one that hurts other people), the looks and all..
And I feel so guilty. So stupid. Because I didn't know it would change my way of thinking this hard. I think that is what makes me feel confused.. real me and modern me, two in one silly, and breakable heart and mind.

But the cool thing is that I haven't given up yet, so I guess I've developed a strength.. Enough strenght to like keep my alive from my insaness.